Misery

I lay in bed at night, everything out of sight.
but when I get up and turn on the light,
I find myself someplace faraway.

Some place no one knows,
some place no one goes.
some place where I feel so alone.
some place where it's freezing cold.

Sometimes I wonder if maybe I made a
mistake.
Sometimes I feel so fake.
Maybe I wouldn't feel this way,
If I had went the other way.

Nothing feels the way it had,
I feel so mad,even sad.
I would go back,if I could.
But I am OK for now.

At least I don't feel as left out,
Time has changed,and the past is fading away.
maybe I'll be alright,I'll wait and see.

I missed the past but now I'm free.

say goodbye,is all i hear.When the past is so near.I still have fear.

And then I feel a tear fall down my cheek as I lay in bed I feel so weak.
I hear a voice in my head,
and for a moment I thought I was dead.