You and me

At first you were just a friend
Then a crush which is just a ton of mush
Then I loved you which I will till the end of time
I consider you more then a friend
I like your presence n style being wit you is price less
I always laugh at your jokes even if they r weird
I would share any thing with u even my heart
Trying to impress u was always easy
At first being around u made me a little queasy
But after a while that went away and I became safe
Like nothing could touch me but your soft touch
You were more special then all the rest all
I wanted was to b wit and never apart
I could never compare u to anything your 2perfect
I have giving u more then I ever have before
I promise to give you all I can and love u as long as I live
But now the safe ness has faded now I am scare
I lost you because of another girl
And I don’t think I can take the pain or cause u anymore
I have done wrong as u have I have paid for mine n still am
But now its your turn I don’t want to make u pay but
U broke my heart u ripped it out n fed it to the dogs
U have hurt me more then I have ever in a lifetime
I hate u so much for what u did but
Yet I cant stop thinking or loving u
Now I cry every night and have to watch couples
And think how we use to do that
And I can’t take that any more
I want to for get you and move on yet
I want to stay and b wit u for ever but
That’s not what u want so I need to accept the fact your gone
I want to have fun and b me again
I want to give some1 a chance that won’t break my heart
I want the tears n pain to go away but
It won’t because I can’t stop thinking of u
I need to for get all the sweet things u said n did
I need to get ova u but I just cant no matter what I do
I thought I could deal wit the pain but I cant.
I cant stop loving u i don’t think I could ever stop loving u
But it’s killing me more n more everyday
I am not who I use to b and now
I am scarred and confused because I love u so much but
I cant ever trust u again wit my heart.
If I can ever get it back.i am 2scared it will b broken again by the person
I love n care bout the most.