Let me be..

Slashes on my leg...
Take my life I softly beg..
Why does things always go bad for me?
Just forget it...and let me be..
I truly forgot what it was like to be happy..
I'm good at pretending that I'm fine..
When honestly..I wish this life wasn't mine
So now what do I do?
Sit here and continue to become blue?
Or give up on loving you?
I cant help the way I am
I really wish I could..
Because believe me I really would..
I just don't understand why things go so bad..
Does Jesus really enjoy seeing me sad?