Because Of You

Because of you
I can never seem to sleep
Because of you
I just break down and weep

Because of you
I have to take pills to keep me sane
Because of you
All I know is pain

Because of you
I don’t trust myself or anyone
Because of you
And what you’ve done

Because of what you did
I try to cut you out of me
Because of you
I watch my blood run free

Because of you
My smile is fake
Because of you
I wanna drown in a lake

Because of you
I had to grow up so fast
Because of you
My childhood didn't last

First I couldn't remember
And now I can’t forget
I said over and over
“Please, wait.. Not yet”

Because of you
I cut myself with a blade
Because of you
I’ll always be afraid

“My heart can’t possibly break when it wasn’t even whole to start with”

** dedicated to Brian Dell - Brian, if you're reading this, you know what you did, don't let it happen again. **