Why is this puzzle so hard to build?
They tell me they love me
They tell me they need me
I love them all
I want the world to myself
And yet at the same time I rather burn in hell
Why must I thrive and long for attention?
Yet at the same time long to erase my existence
This goal I’ve set
Why won’t it function?
It won’t stay together
This puzzle I build on
Always falls apart
I don’t wanna be known anymore
I hate myself to much,
To show you right love
And when I do
My heart just gets squeezed
Then bleeds black
And flows through my scars
I feel so compressed
I fear that I’ll hurt them
I fear they’ll hurt me...
You say you love me
I love you too
But there’s no connection
Between me and you
Why am I kept back?
Why can’t I move?
My plan is a failure..
I am too
Every little crack
Is a call to my flaw
This is not working
It’s not meant to
I’ll just go now
I am through
Just one slit
Should do the trick
If I’m lucky I may be missed
But it won’t last long
Soon I’ll be forgotten
When the time comes along...
Not loved
Not hated
Just there and gone
Oh well too bad
I’ll just sing a song
So I won’t have to believe what I did was wrong
It’s a lie after all
When it all comes together
They weren’t true at all
And things won’t be better...
