Reflections

Am i really what i say i am
Is that person me
I never knew it would be so hard
To analyse myself

My smile is plastic
My laugh is fake
My tears aren't even sad
Am i really who i think i am

I'm outgoing fun and loving
I'm gentle and sincere
I know thats me i can tell
But the scars lie

They laugh in my face
I was wrong
I'm not the person i thought i knew
It pierces me

But its not fair
As in a world where people love and are loved in return
And fuel themselves with this love
Can i not be fueled by pain

Can i not stand alone
And just be me
The person i know i am
Without comment

So i stare back at myself
In all my glory
Battle scars be them mental or physical
Will still remain

And by remaining with me
They deepen the pain
And that sickens me
To see myself like that