To live or die....

I'm so tired of all this trying
Every day I try the more I fall behind
You always accuse me of lying
But the truth is I lie to stay alive

I dont know what you want from me
I've tried so hard to make you see
That I cant be who you want me to be

I smile everday just to hide it all
I can't let anyone know that i want to cry
I get home and once more I begin to fall
All the thoughts in my head tell me to die

I dont know why I'm even living anymore
I've ruined everything in my so called life
I mean who the hell am I even living for
Maybe I should just take the knife and end it all...

...I know its not that good...I wrote it when i was really upset...vote and comment tho please....