If I keep this up
Torturing myself daily
Forcing myself to notice them
In their happy bubble
Twisting in jealousy and pain
Wanting something I will never able to have
I will surely make myself sick
This jealousy
Is carving a hole into my heart
Rotting it and turning it bitter
Why not me
Why?
What does she have
That I wouldn't give you?
These questions constantly turn in my head
I am miserable
And alone
Without You
