What do you know?

"Ooh you are so depressing...
Take the stupid nickname off...
You are not sad!"
She writes me.
Infuriated I do not answer her
Just leave her to talk to herself

What does she know
About what I am feeling
Does she know how my days are going?
Does she know how I am feeling?
She obviously does not.

She has chosen to blind herself from the truth
Choosing to believe something that is a lie
I mean every word of my nickname-
"These days I feel like I am fading away"

I am losing touch with reality
Let myself become invisible
Sinking lower and lower into my pit of depression
But of course she doesn't know all this because she never asked me
She doesn't care that her friend wants to die.
Yet she likes to claim
That I am one of her best friends

If I wanted to lie
I could tell her that I am completely fine
I would NEVER think of suicide
But what would that do?

But since she chooses to believe the mask
I let her.
When I am dead
She will know that I was serious when I said
I was fading away.