I sit alone on my bed
i write in my diary about the day
the sadness is still here i still sit alone
i listen to music to try and help me it just seems like nothing can be
i lay down on my side think about the things i felt to hide inside of me
i know now that they wont come free
I'll keep them locked up inside of me
if i can let go of my weakness I'll feel better
but i know i can't because they have become a part of me
i wish i was a normal person who could smile without being fake
maybe if i could dream a new life I'd be happier
but no! I'll have to stay with this one
no one knows how i feel on the inside
i must hide my feelings well
i feel like i don't do anything right
and if i do i hurt the person most close to me
if i say something i feel it hurts you inside
i can tell cos your go silent and look down
you tell somethings wrong with me cos i go moody and i start thinking about whats on my mind
I'll just have to sit alone tonight
I'll sit and think about everything
i know many times i do say the wrong things without knowing but you take them the wrong way
I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you in anyway
you know deep down i don't mean it
I'll sleep tonight and dream a empty dream
i close my eyes so they wont hurt
i hear your voice and it heals my heart
see i don't intend to mess up i just do anyway with everything
i try and do something and it comes back at my face
i panic and i lose it all
all comes down to me crying at night and being fake in the morning with my my smiles
i continue to sit alone on my bed with the music loud in my head
and the pen in my hand writing away my pain from my heart
i continue to cry continues to dream away
the tears help get the pain out but each tear rips a part of my heart out
and i don't have anyone to help me now
I'll have to be OK I'll have to be
i really wanna let go of these things i feel
i really wanna let go of me hiding away
i really wanna let go of me shying away from life just because i think i wont be able to take it
i really wanna let go...full stop
