Sometimes I Dream (when I sleep)

Sometimes I dream when I sleep
I used to dream all the time
Of everything and everyone
Now I only dream sometimes
Just sometimes
Not every other night
Not every week
Maybe once a month
Sometimes
I'd close my eyes
And wait for the dreams to come
And then they came
They came like presents
They came wrapped
In bright colors
And crazy patterns
They were filled with
Candy and clouds
Dreams and hopes
With me
One day a little piece of me
Was taken away
Along with it my dreams
Bit by bit my dreams faded away
I started to fade away
I started to hate myself
Self doubt took over
I can't
I'm too stupid
Stupid
Stupid
Stupid!
I'd close my eyes
All I saw was darkness
Darkness everywhere
Surrounding me
Taking me over
Pulling me down
Down forever
Things reached out for me
I'd run and run
Not getting anywhere
Tripping and falling
Not being able to move
Falling down farther and farther
Into bliss
I learned to fear dreams
And darkness
And sleep
So I didn't sleep
I stayed up all night
Fearing what was to come
Fearing myself
My family
My life
Thoughts of suicide
Death
So it would all be over
And I could finally rest
Then I thought of whom I'd leave behind
I thought of
My friends
What I could do
Whom I could help
Memories I would have
I close my eyes
I see haze
The confused haze
That I am constantly in
I dream sometimes
Not all the time
Sometimes

-If u have seen this before posted by Piper thats cause she is my best friend and posted it for me!