My Secret.

by Ashmore   Jan 18, 2005


I was just a little kid, and I remembered all the things they did
"Not a word...I swear it won't hurt..take your clothes off..ah yes...that's what I like best.."

I remember feeling so hopeless, everything just went out of focus
and I never felt so alone, and I felt so fuccin dis-owned
this wasn't the only time, one says "It's okay, because you are my family..you're mine"
Family, as if that makes it okay, but I tried to tell Mom but he said that I seem to exaggerate more each day

It was those two that I always feared, and I just wanted them to go and disappear
they always did this when Mom went to work, and I'll never forget how much it hurt
I've tried so hard to tell my Mom and its been 7 years, but I feel as if she won't believe me
I fear she'll ask "You are making this up. Why are you now just telling me? I've heard enough"

I haven't ever gotten close to the two that has scarred my life, and he acts as if it never happened
What should I do? I can't get this out in the open..and I'm only telling this to you
It's bottled up inside of me so deep..and it's hard to fall asleep every single night of the week
I was just a little kid, and I remembered all the things they both did...

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  • 19 years ago

    by Kezza

    Hey dis Kerry's mum writing to say: do as my Kerry has advised talk to family doctor get recorded as accident therefore u may b intiled 2 financial assistance for councelling. Been there & yes it does take a lot of hard work & tears & luv. Wish I culd giv u a hug & help u. Take care remain special
    Frm Jo
    xxx

  • 19 years ago

    by *~*ONE LOVE n A life Time*~*

    Your not the only one out there that is trying to get it out there. The same thing happend to me for 7 years . I tried to tell my mother but its hard. I feel that if i do everything will get worse. Take care of your self and dont forget that we who this has happend to never stop praying for you.

  • 19 years ago

    by Sherry Lynn

    Oh Jess, My heart goes out to you. This type of pain is never forgotten. I will hold you tight in my thoughts and prayers. You are a very strong person to write about such termoil and pain... yet to even touch upon the confusion of what to do makes it very clear that you are exceptional!

    --Sher

  • 19 years ago

    by Kezza

    Hey it may be hard 2 tell your mum but you have 2 coz once it out in da open its so much better, trust me i didnt tell my parents 4 a couple of years & its only coz last yr it happend 2 a m8 & she told me i told her & den it all come out.Sweetie dis is da truth its better out den in coz it wil eat u up & ur mum may no sumthink is up but wants u 2 tell her. Tell her u will feel so much better if you cant tell her get a trustd friend 2 tell her & make sure they tell her she isnt allowed 2 stress out in front of you. It works honestly. Keep in touch, & gud luck
    Kerry
    xxxx

  • 19 years ago

    by Gracie Jo

    A very good poem, I liked it a lot. Thanks for the comments! :) They truly mean a lot to me. Take care always & God bless!

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