Christmas Wish

(By Sarah)

I can imagine him screaming
crying out in pain
leaving his lungs breathless
driving me insane

reaching out to grab my hand
but never quite far enough
so now i just sit empty
trying to act tough

tears sting my eyes
remembering you smile
how even if it was just ten years
it was definitely worth while

i pray every night
for you to come home
i leave the night light on
so maybe i won't be alone

you're not here to tuck me in
chase monsters from under the bed
to tell me to sleep tight
kiss me gently on my head

daddy's little angel
wishes she could leave
follow him to heaven
so her eyes won't deceive

sometimes i think i feel him
resting his hand beside my cheek
i just break down crying
i feel so very weak

screaming till i can't speak
my voice hoarse with rage
leaving me alone
at such a young age

living in nightmare
wishing to wake up
just to see your face again
to hear your voice would be enough

some people meet me
with a smile on my face
but behind them wander tears
waiting to replace

i look to the Christmas tree
sparkling so bright
you're not here to see it
won't be here to share the night

you stocking isn't hanging
above the fireplace
its like you didn't exist
gone without a trace

so I'll just open my presents
smiling ear to ear
i didn't really need all this
only wanted one thing this year

Dear Santa, I've been good
trust me i really have
so please grant my Christmas wish
and bring me back my dad