Why Cant This Stop?(Part 1)

I lie in bed wondering why,
wondering why, why do i cry?
I try and try and try to stop,
but its so hard when it comes back to me.
I'm in my bathroom one day,
and a pack of blades fall down.
As soon as they hit the floor,
it felt like my life was falling,
down, down, down!
I start wondering and questioning,
why should i die?
i don't really know.
i see pain and frustration in the back of my head.
sometimes i don\'t know what to do,
or what to think.
there's somebody telling me to do it,do it twice!
you have to, its killing you inside!
so you get the blade,
you put it to your skin,
and let the blood flow!