Unrecoverable

I know what they think, when they look at me,
A girl unrecoverable, that needs to be free.
I want it too, but something holds me back,
I just want to jump, everything is already black.

Each day i live, proves my life is a mistake,
a complicated existence, and that I must take.
I have to stop this hurting, for them I must fall,
Stop me from hurting you, no longer will I stall.