Thats me

Don't know how to tell you
Its hard to explain
That inside myself
Ive been hiding this pain

Theres a voice inside my head
Thats telling me to stop
But everytime i try
My confidence seems to drop

I tell people things
But there not even true
There mostly all lies
But they don't have a clue

Often i tell myself
Someday this will end
But I'm afraid if i stop
My heart will never mend

I tell people i love them
When really i do not
I tell them their my bestfriend
When they put me on the spot

I tell people I'm happy
When thats not how i feel
I tell people I'm excited
And they believe its real

But when i tell them I'm sad
And all i wanna do is cry
They look at me and laugh
And think its all a lie

They only see one side of me
They never see the other
What they do not know
My lies are hidden with another

When i told something untrue
They seem so satisfied
When i told them the truth
Thats when my heart seem to have died