13 years without you

12 years living my life without a father,
when i was a little kid it didn`t really bother.
but now i`m 13&you suddenly appeared in my life&wanted me back.
i can`t believe in those 12 years you never cared for me.
i can`t believe in those 12 years you never loved me&welcome me in your arms,
your very first daughter that you never wanted to see.
i still remember when i had my 8th birthday,
before i blow my candles i said my wish that i`ve been dying to share.
i wished you were here in all these years,
i wished you had the effort to help me face all my fears,
and i wished you had the love to help me every time i fall
&be the one to wipe away my tears.
but now i`m strong enough to ignore June 19th,
i`m big enough not to cry nor think about you not being here.
but Arnold before i end this poem,i just want to let you know,
my name is Ethyl&i`m now 13 years old.