FreeWrite #1

*this is a free write which means that all of this written down is random thoughts in my head.........well, here we go!*

As I stare at the cherries o my hand all I can do is wonder what happened. What happened in the past to make me turn out like this. You see I’m not normal. I wish I was though. I wish I could walk around with a smile on my face and mean it...not pretend. I think back........way back to when it all began. Oh how I wish that moment of my life never happened. As I sit here and reminisce my heart grows cold and my heart begins to ache with every beat. Then my body succumbs to the pain and freezes over, as I slowly slip away, and fade into the nothingness below...... And as I fade I begin to dream.......I begin to dream that I was the smoke that faded into the sky. That I was the girl that was always there but invisible.......she was never REALLY seen anyways. I begin to dream about where the lost souls and demons that took control of me will go when I fade away. Will they return home taking me with them? Or will they just move on to the next weak human forgetting I even existed? This feeling I get when my body freezes over. It’s like I can finally breathe for the first time. Then as my last breath comes, and the demons and lost souls are about to be freed, one last thought passes through my mind..............I WANT TO LIVE!!!