You lose one you gain one

I sit here wandering what is going wrong.
I feel like my life is like one screwed up song.
I am sick and scared.
For whatever is coming I am not prepared.

I sit here alone looking at the test.
I wander if this is for the best.
It turns pink, minutes after.
Then I feel happiness and laughter.

Now I am scared of what is a head.
But how can I feel mostly happiness instead.
I don't know how my family will face it.
They will think so much less of me I have to admit.

I walk up to them and tell them the truth.
As a tears fall down my cheek.
Then my legs give out because I am so despirately weak.
I wake up the next morning in a hospital bed.
Believing that I honestly thought that I was dead.

I look at my mother as I see a tear roll down.
My father had this aweful looking frown.
The doctor arrived and looked at me.
He said your having a baby as you can see.

I said I know as I bent down in shame.
For I am the person to blame.
It wasn't planned at all you know.
I feel horrible for feeling happy though.

The doctor said theres nothing wrong with that.
That if I ever needed anything that he was there to chat.
I am 3 months pregnant he had said.
As I sat there in that hospital bed.

Well 6 months later I felt a sharp pain.
As I ran to the car in the rain.
I gave birth to a healthy baby girl.
In front of her head she had a little curl.

The next day before we were released.
I found out that the father of my baby was deceased.
He died in a car crash on his way here.
I was sad and in shock and was scared and full of fear.

For I had a baby to raise all on my own.
Me and my girl are all alone.
Then my family came in minutes after.
My mother was full of tears and had was full of laughter.

I looked at her when a tear rolled down.
I said mom I am alone and then I frowned.
She said its alright we are here.
We always will be my dear.

I looked at my baby as she opened her eyes.
She looks just like her daddy and has the same little cries.