Hidden lies

I say I'm getting better
after 3 months of stress
everyone thinks I'm clean
i said I'd never confess

i haven't cut myself since
i tell them a lie
I've cut more than ever
but i don't want to die

only one knows the truth
of what i really see
she hasn't yet told
she the only one who knows me

i look at my arms
over and over again
silent tears stream down my face
i want want it to Begin

all the pain I've put people through
i want it all to stop
the cries, empty hearts and lies
i just want the whole issue to drop

as soon as i stop
wearing sweatshirts & long sleeves
everyone will see
that people still believe

I've done bad
for the last couple of years
lying to everyone i see
ending all my fears

i don't get my ways
everyone not letting it be
i wish it to go
way away from me