Im Still Sorry Mummy....

by Hailey   Feb 9, 2005


Now Mum I'm Not So Good With Words
But This Time I'm Trying So Much More
I Want You To Hear It One More Time
Before I Finally Take The Knife And Close This Door

I Want You To Know I'm Sorry
And I'm Still Sorry When I Leave This Earth
If I Could,Id Give You A Time Machine
And You Could Go Back And Erase My Birth

I Don't Know Why God Put Me Here
And I'm More Sure Now It Was A Mistake
I'm Constantly Living In Some Dream World
One From Which I Now Will Not Awake

I'm Sorry I Didn't Wear Pretty Dresses
Or Wear My Brown Hair In A Bow
I'm Sorry I Didn't Play With Dolls
I Just Never Knew which Way To Go

I'm Sorry I Didn't Have Aspirations
And I Hated God And This Life
I'm Sorry I Didn't Find A Best friend
Except For This Kitchen Knife

I'm Sorry I Fought With My Brothers
Believe It Or Not Sometimes I Tried
I Tried To Be The Daughter You Wanted
But That Pleasure I Was Denied

I Wanted To Be Like Corey
So Your Eyes Wouldn't Be Filled With hate
I Wanted To Be Smart Like Him
But I Suppose Now Its Just Way Too Late

I'm Sorry My Marks Were Really Bad
And I Didn't So Well At School
You Said If I Just Tried A Little
But To Be Honest I Was A Fool

I Didn't Get The Questions Right
And The Teachers Didn't Care
I Tried So Very Hard Sometimes
But The Answers Were Never There

I'm Sorry You Didn't Like My Boyfriend
And I Know He Was Bad News
I'm Sorry I Chose A Life So Stupid
But I Was So Young And So Confused

I'm Sorry I Went Out That Night
With His Long Time Best Friend
I'm Sorry I Got What I Deserved
A Pain That Ill Never Be Able To Mend

I'm Sorry I Cried In Your Arms
And Made You Worry More Than I'm Worth
I'm Sorry For Every Second I Made You Cry For me
I'm Sorry For Every minute I Was Here On Earth

I'm Sorry I Slit My Wrists
I Thought It Was A Great Was Out
I'm Sorry I Closed My Self Off
And Id Constantly Scream And Shout

I'm Sorry You Had Hope For Me
And Dreams And Ambitions Ever So True
Id Never make A Great Ritter
People Don't Wanna Read Things So Blue

And Like I Said At The Beginning
Writing Isn't My Best Feature
I'm More Of A Lonely Peasant
Some Horrible Dark Creature

I'm Just A Broken Angel
That Doesn't Belong Here
I'm Not Filled With Love Or Hope
And I Say This With A Tear

I'm Sorry For My Funeral
And The Tears You May Cry
I'm Sorry That I Couldn't Apologies Enough
That I Decided To Rather Die

I'm Sorry Your A Great Mum
But I Didn't Deserve The Best
And I'm Sorry when You Read This
That I Now Finally Lay A Rest....

Please Vote And Comment...It Would Mean SO Much..This Is The Truth Within...Thanks

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  • 19 years ago

    by christina

    wow very nice poem i really liked it im sorry abt wats happnin u should always be strong dont give upp!!!! sorry abt ur mother and u .... r not that close these days but try to be u will always be her little giirl take care hunz
    peace

  • 19 years ago

    by Hailey

    Thankx Everyone..Sadly Its True..Me And My Mum Arent very Close These Days..Im Not Sure If She Hates Me Or Just Cant Bare To Look At Me Mmm Oh Well Its Life Right..Thanks People..Mwa Mwa

  • 19 years ago

    by BIGBIRD

    Babe, this is a great poem... try and stay strong, and if you need anything, just tell me... you know im here for you no matter what... Love Mark