I Refuse

I refuse to look into your eyes
Afraid of what you'll see
You were always so good
At reading me

I refuse to look into your eyes
Afraid you'll see the tears
From not having you here anymore
To help conquer all my fears

I refuse to look into your eyes
Afraid you'll see my pain
And how my wrist have returned
To being blood stained

I refuse to look into your eyes
Afraid that you'll look at me
And see that I stay up all night
Thinking of how things use to be

I refuse to look into your eyes
Afraid to face reality
Because I'm in love with you
And your no longer in love with me