My Suicide Note

As i lay me down tonight
I must write this first
And settle everything right
I know how much this hurts
As i am writing this for my family and friends
Tears are flowing
And i know u guys think its the end
but really I'm still growing
I'm just not alive
but my soul has not died
I'm at a loss for words
to tell you why i had to go
but all i know is my heart was broken
my soul was shaken
and my life was not what i could take
so this decision i had to make
i know it will be hard for everyone
and i know you guys will never completely heal
but the pain i had was just to real
i was feeling worse each day
and each day the pain would never go away
i tried to get help
i even tried to help myself
as i write this
my tears are flowing down my cheeks
staining the paper with tears from me
this is note is part of my life
its telling of my strife
take it as a souvenir
and always have it near
cuz i won't be here
to help anyone of you through anything
i couldn't even help myself
so as i write my final lines
of this sad sad note
a million things run through my mind
and i know that its time
to leave this cruel cruel world
do not grieve for me
do not cry for me
cuz I'm still here
my heart may not be alive
but my soul has not died
so here is my suicide note