The price i pay

Sanity is worth the price I pay
Questions, worry, and suffering is the only way
I have no options
Possibilities are not endless
The time old tale has been proven wrong
Anxiety and confusion is now my basis

I pay a big price
For a little bit of comfort
And yet I know it doesn't suffice
I am running out of words
To relieve my hurt
I feel as if I am digging and my heart
Just to get a little liberation

I know my rhymes aren't perfect
But it matches me because I am far from that
I don't make sense
But I no longer think it is worth the expense
For me things aren't so simple
There are things I don't comprehend

Sorry I squandered your time
I'm not worth a hearing ear
Believe me, I am far from sublime
I'll always be like this
Sick and distorted some how
I will never have a day of complete comfort
I will never be totally at peace

And yet I still pay a price
For a moment
Just a brief flash of “I'm okay”
It might seem too high of stake
But I am not willing to sit here and wait