Which one

I lay awake at night
searching through my fright
wondering which one would be less painful
which one would work the best
so many to choose from
but which one
i just can't do it alone tho
i need someone there with me
and to help me to guide me through
i know that sounds odd but i do
so if u hear me cry out
please help me without a doubt
there is nothing left me to do
but die
there are so many forms of suicide
but which one
to choose from
theres the knife on my wrists
the blade or the scissors
the gun to shoot me gone
and let the hurt be done
then there is one my significant to me
the that sounds the best
that i can see
theres dying in my sleep overdosing
taking it down the road
CZ no more can i carry my load
but i can't do it alone i cannot go through my plan alone i need someone there with me
someone who loves me
and can see my pain
but know that i love them with all my heart
and will be by my side form end to start
who will guide me through
and help on what i want to do
i know it will be hard and i know it will be long
but I'm really not strong
so i know what my plan is
i know what I'm doing
so be there for me please
and watch me die
and tell me you'll always have me in your heart