Have You Ever...?

I know it doesn't rhyme, but that's not the point.

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and wanted to scream and run away so fast that not even your shadow could catch up?

Have you ever wanted to just break down and cry for no reason except that you thought that it would quiet the constant yelling in your head?

Have you ever watched your past as if you were watching a movie and imagined if anything now would be different if you had said that thing?

Have you ever really listened to yourself and were so disgusted that you forever tuned out what you felt and took on feelings of others?

Have you ever wondered if after all these years of being emotionless towards him that you did deserve to be abandoned?

Have you ever taken a shower and as the soap washed off your arms you looked at all of your scars and wished that you dug the blade deeper?

Have you ever dreamed that sorry was enough to give them wings to help them fly away from your evil?

Have you ever wanted to die, not because you're suicidal, but because it hurt too much to live?