Should I??????

Should I?
or shouldn't I?
would it make people happy?
or wouldn't they notice?

part of me want to
but part of me doesn't
I want to end it
end me

I don't want to be anymore
I don't want to see
I don't want to feel
I don't want to hear

I don't know what to do
I'm arguing with myself
inside my head
where the demented thing are

no one hears the things i hear
when i argue with myself
they don't want to
i don't want to

I hear these voices
telling me to do it
then i hear others
telling me not to

it would make some people happy
but others sad
I don't want to see
I don't want to hear the voices i hear
I don't want to feel like i do right now