I want what I can't have......

It still doesn't seem to me like to me you hold true,
You say that there is three but there's really only two.
One doesn't love you like you wish that she would.
The other one is yours to hold and to you she is staying true.
Me, I just sit here and I hope and I wish.
That maybe one day we could share only just one kiss.
That one kiss would let me know how you really feel.
If you are just using me or if your love is real.
I've wanted to tell you so from the very start,
that I love you and I care and I want to share our hearts.
More than once you've held me close and you held me so tight.
My love for you it some how grew and then I had to fight.
I couldn't let them get to you because I didn't have the right.
To say to you how I really felt even though I wanted to with all my might.
I couldn't hold you close enough to say exactly what I wanted.
I somehow managed to overcome and now my wish was granted.
We were alone and then we talked about all that we felt.
We told about the pain we shared and how we both have dealt.
Now you know I love you and apparently you love me too.
But now you're acting different to me and I don’t know what to do.
I had a little talk with my heart and now I see the light.
What I really feel for you was now within my sight.
My friends all tell me to give up but they don’t understand I can’t.
I’m emotionally attached to you and now I feel so bad.
I feel so guilty and I cry, but you never see the tears.
You never see the pain I hide and my emotional fears.
I wish now we were side by side and together we could sleep.
We could be so happy in blissfulness so deep.
The comfort of you next to me would make my demons disappear.
All my fears would wash away and there’d be only happiness in my tears.
I think of you constantly and I feel so obsessed.
But now I feel much better now that to myself I have confessed.