Life turned horrible when you left

Theres someone who cheers me up when I'm sad,
someone who makes me laugh when feeling bad.
He makes rain feel like happiness,
and sunshine look like sadness.
Blonde hair and blue eyes,
with him each day is a surprise.
When someone makes me frown, he goes over to them and turns em upside down.
My twin brother Andi,
makes life so much more happier for me.
When I was sick, when I was depressed, when I was almost gone,
he sang me something, almost similar to our song.
"You shine like the moon,
your face is getting pale. Please live, or forever life will be jail. We may be siblings, we may be related,
but without you every things outdated.
Please fight this now, find a cure, because I know your heart and soul will forever be pure..."
He sang that softly, for now my friend, I know for a fact, he'll give his life for me in the end.
For we are the best brother and sister ever by far, we can't keep each other bottled up like a jar.
We set each other free, but for now, without Andi, theres no more me.
In memory to you, oh how I miss you so,
my dear twin brother how did you die within the month of snow.
My heart felt cold as ice, watching you go, now that it happened, I don't think I'll ever be nice.
As I lay here remembering, everything about you, I wish I knew what really happened that day. I said I was sorry, I said that alot. Until that one day during winter in the parking lot...
So I always wanted you to know, that when I was with you, life was happy, but now I know that life is horrible without you.

† In loving memory to my twin brother Andi † If you all are wondering, I'm his twin sister, Ash†