Killing me

I want to hit back at those kids
who made me mess up just like this
who made me take down the knife
who destroyed my god damn life
They ruined me for good
I didn't think they would
But then I felt the tears
coming from all my fears
I turned to drugs you see
They really messed with me
and made me even worse
I can't escape this curse
It's addictive and it's strong
To take them it was wrong
But now I cannot stop
and so my lifes messed up
when I see them smile
the thoughts that come are vile
How can they dare to it
They took my life and threw it
away into the bin
the anger sinking in
if they ever think to look in
and see the life they've ruined
They'll never sleep again
They'll never laugh again
I'm make them cry and cry
However hard they try
They will never feel joy
Their lives just like a void
of darkness and of fear
as I whisper in their ears
Cruel comments and cruel chants
so they don't have a chance
So they can finally see
the things they did to me
I hope they feel my knife
I want to take their life