Pain Behind The Smile

I cut myself last night,
To ease some of my pain.
Everyone up here hates me,
So I should live my life in vain.

Maybe I should just leave,
Because no-one loves me anyways.
Maybe I should just forget about all the memories,
And all the bright happy days.

I hate how everyone
Hates me..
If they only saw the cuts
Then they'd see.

I hate how I'm the only one that gets hurt,
I hate how I'm the one thats left behind.
I hate how I'm the one thats dying inside,
With all the pain no-one can find.

My friends hate me,
My family thinks I'm a disgrace.
Does anyone notice
The tears running down my face?

Does anyone even know,
What it fells like to be me?
Does anyone even feel,
The pain I so often see?

I don't think they do know,
How it feels to be like this.
Always sad,
Or always pi**ed.

My life's so screwed up,
And nobody knows..
They cant the pain behind the smile,
Because it never shows..