Its been three months

It’s been three months since the last time I cut
I put the blade in a lock and tried to keep it shut

But I opened the lock and put it to my wrist
I pushed it down hard and gave it a little twist

Just enough to hurt, just enough to cry
Just enough to make sure my pain was implied

I didn't want to do it, but the pain was just too much
I felt relieved as the blade and my skin touched

Now I’m relieved, I’ll put the blade away
And until the pain is too much is where it will stay