Cutz

As I look at my scars
I think of what Ive done
And how
I never again would see the sun
How I would miss the silent chirping
Of new born birds
And how I would never hear
Your sweet words
Maybe life was never as bad
As I thought
Even though every night
I'd cut and cry a lot
But then again I think of the reasons
I cut myself for
It makes me want to grab my blade
And lay bleeding on the floor
As I hold back my tears
As I think of you and I
And how i wanted you to stay
But you didn't listen and said Goodbye
I miss how you used to hold me
And treat me like and angel from above
How you used to make me smile
And make me feel so loved
Now we have taken separate paths
That will never collide
But I really wish this was the day
You were walking at my side
So i look at my knife again
Its sharp to the touch
As i slide it across my wrist
My memories of you no longer hurt so much
I remember how it used to relieve my stress
And how its helping me right now
I think of why you left me
And how

-Mexxy
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