Do not understand

I cant stand the pain anymore
i fell like cutting but i cant
i promised so i cant
i laugh to hide the pain
no one knows how i feel
i cry myself to sleep
hoping i don't wake up
but when i do i realize i am alone
no one can help me
not friends or family
although they have try-ed
i love my brother
i really do sometimes that is the only thing that keeps me going
all i ever want to do is crawl in me bed and not wake up
i hate my life there is to much pain
hurt angry
i don't know why i feel this way
the only time i feel safe
is when i am in Edmonton
on my old street where i grew up
i was happy back in the day
things were so simple
people were kind helpful
not like today
to many people raped depressed
there is to much hurt int he world
everyone seems like they are drifting off
while i am standing still
alone
no one understands
i don't even understand
why i have so much pain
why there is so much pain on earth
why people must cut to feel no stress
it never helps i have found out
people think i am acting but i am not
i hate my life
my everything
some people feel offended
by the word everything
thats why they would never understand
the pain i feel

i know it suck but i wanted to write it anyways

by Michelle

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