Disillusioned

I’m sorry for what ever you did that made me love you
Because the reality is your love never was true
I’m sorry that my heart intertwined with your heart
Because in my soul I need us to be apart

I wish that our fatally attracted gazes had never met
Because every second that I sent in your arms I regret
I was disillusioned with you; you captivated me with lies
But even though our love was non-existent my heart still cries

My heart was never joined to yours it was just my imagination
Nothing I felt with you was real; it was all your creation
I would rather dream, than live in this isolating reality
Where I struggle to keep going because of your brutally

My heart was just a toy to you and you played the game
Intoxicating me with only words and actions that caused pain
Why did you let me believe with all my heart that you loved me
Was I so disillusioned by you that I just saw what I wanted to see?