Save Me

I spend so much time sitting here,
Just thinking.
About everything that's happened.
About eveything that's happening.
And about everything that will happen.
And all I can do is ask myself,
Where did it go so wrong?
Why has everything made a turn for the worse?
What did I do to deserve this?
I wish it would all just go away.
I want it to end today.
Go back to how it was before.
Before the pressures of reality hit me.
I wish I knew nothing.
So I could live in bliss and ignorance,
Never knowing how cruel life can be.
Instead, I'm tortured by this sense of emptiness.
I fall through a dark abyss of nothingness,
Screaming and screaming always at the top of my lungs,
And yet never making a sound.
Constantly searching for a way out,
And yet never touching the ground.
Always that sense of falling.
I keep thinking it's just a dream,
Someone will hear my scream.
But the harsh reality always hits me hard,
And wakes me from my hopeful thoughts.
The painful, hope-filled thoughts,
That eat away at my mind,
Like a disease that can't be cured.
And I hate it so much.
I yearn for the days when I was free.
Not imprisoned by the lies of society,
Nor chained by life's horrid trends.
Free to live and be content.
Just free.
But those days are over.
For now I only fall through the abyss,
Just waiting for it to all be over.
Just waiting for someone to hear me.
Or see me.
And save me.
Because for the first time,
I'm the one who needs saving.