Depressed Again

Hey!
Guess what!
Yup
its all back
to the way it was
before Amanda came along
made my life just a bit happier

She made me happy
she made me smile
Think a bit more
about what life is

You left me
for Drew
I hope he makes you happy
Because it will make me happy

You have dated this dude
2 times before
and now your going back
I don't understand
you dumped him for a reason

Amanda I told you sorry
I told you U can trust me
and U can
U just wouldn't tell me anything
you didn't tell me the real you
the one I wanted to hear

I can into your life
so you can talk to me
and not have anyone
look at you funny

I am human
I made a mistake
Please forgive me
I am so sorry

Amanda without you
I am lost
I want to cry
but can't
I wont let myself

If I cry
I will end up
hurting more
and more

I took a walk today
went to the curb
where we cuddled
I was about to burst
out into tears

I want to be happy
I want you to be happy
but I cant do that I guess

I talked to Simone
asked her what you would do
if I told you sorry
and why I read the poems
if you would take me back
she told me no and left

Amanda U have no clue
what Pain I am feeling
you were a huge part in my life
U made me so happy

I think of all the great times we had
and get depressed
I want those times back
I want you in my arms
I want it all back so badly

What makes Drew so much better?
Does he treat you better?
Does he make you smile and laugh?

I guess so
because I did all those things
till that day
I burst out in anger
because of your brother
and dad

I guess I am stuck
to be unhappy
and lost
with no one around
to hear my scream
and cry for help

I want the happiness
I want you

:'( please come back
I can't live this life
without you

If only you knew
how depressed I was
before you
and how depressed I am
now

someone gave me a dagger
for christmas
Its hanging up
I can use it

I thought it wouldn't
come in handy
but it seems like a way out

no
I can't leave
there might be
something else
that I am missing right now

something to come
IDK
forget it
I love you amanda
and I wont stop
until you tell me to

so sorry once more

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