I'm So Sorry

*I know its long. please comment*

I've told a few
But no one cares
They say they can help
But they're never there

Their actions confuse
And their words hurt
I know they mean well
But it always sounds curt

If I can't stop
The feelings inside
Why do they think they can do better
And make me feel alright

There's no way to be free
This I know
Whether by them or by me
The answer is no

I love them so much
That's why it'll hurt to leave
But I have to go
My life must be thieved

My knife is my friend
My only one
As I hold it now
I know my life's done

Deep in my heart
I want someone to save me
But in my mind I know
That death is the key

I think to myself
'So this is the end
I'm going to die
With my only friend'

I look at the tip
As it glints in the light
And I wish someone were there
To delay my eternal night

I bring the tip to my throat
And begin to put pressure
And think about my mom
Oh God, please bless her

Tears fall from my eyes
Almost as much as the blood
And my life spills out
In an eternal flood

There's no going back
I'm already dead
How I wish I could take back
All the things that I've said

All the lies to my mom
It's her I'll miss most
All the names to my sister
Bless her, Heavenly Host

All the friends I haven't told
And all those that I did
I'm so sorry I left you
We're all just kids!

And then my grandma
Her sweet dear old face
I can't see it anymore
It's beginning to erase

And my ex-boyfriend
Just one piece of advice
Don't even think about death
It'll make your heart like ice

My church friends,
Oh, God, I love you all
I know I gave up
But don't ever fall

And lastly to God
I'm so sorry
It was all too much
The hurt and the worry

But it's all over now
I'll be with you soon
We can talk in Heaven
And walk on the moon

We can talk of what never was
And never will be
But until then
I'M SO SORRY!!!!