Why am i not loved?

These feeling are so awful
i feel like I might die
no one knows how bad this is
every night I cry

everybody has someone
everyone but me
my heart is so brutally twisted
i wish these feelings would flee

why doesn't anyone love me?
its not like my looks lack,
I do have a secret love,
does he maybe love me back?

if I were rejected
just one more time
I don't know what would happen
would my death bells chime?

*OK, I'm sorry this is bad, but I'm really upset, this poem is how i feel right now (well not the death part) but i just feel like crap*