I tried

I tried so hard
And now I see
I feel this hatred
flooding me

I am so angry
I am furious
I am murderous
I just smashed stuff up

I'm cutting again
Deeper deeper
So angry
I'm scaring myself

Silent swear words
Furious hatred
Anger Anger
Taking over

Am I hurt
Should I be
I am livid
I am saddened

No lifelines left
Swirling hate
No happiness
Pools of anger

Muttering pain
Revenge is sweet
Taking my drugs
Eating my food