Suicidal Kid..

I hate living in this world
no one understands how i feel
how its a struggle to live
and how i hardly eat a meal

so alone in a world
full of constant commotion
never good enough for society
always full of emotion

yet lately Ive become
so hollow and so cold
there's no point or reason to live
dieing is easy I'm going to fold

most people fear death
yet i fear life
why are things so confusing
why did i pick up the first knife

things in this world happen
which cause's you to change
to start new habits while others die
making your life to rearrange

no one likes change
only likes what they know
but some things you cant control
sometimes you just have to sit back and watch the show

why do bad things happen
when i already struggle to breath
where are the one's you need
why do they always leave

it would be so much easier
if i just let go and died
people would get over it
realize my happiness i lied

so tired yet i cant go to bed
kept up by my never sleeping mind
full of so many emotions
that people who'd cared would find

but before i drift off into darkness
I'll say a little prayer in my head
hoping to never wake in the morning
hoping that they find me dead

and when they do i hope
that they realize what they did
how they ignored a girl in need of comfort
how they over looked a suicidal kid