My suicide letter

First off,
I'm sorry,
For all the wrong things,
I've done,
But the cement is so cold,
Without shoes,
I can no longer run.

I can't take away,
The slashes,
I made to your heart,
But I'm afraid,
I'm one lost soul,
The has to depart.

I can't hide beneath this smile, this mask, I need to leave this land,
I need to willingly, finish this deadly task.

I've caused you to much pain,
That I can never take back,
Theres nothing,
I wouldn't do for you,
But soul I lack.

Please let me go,
Without crying for nights,
I'm flying into a land,
With golden blazing lights.

I don't want you to worry,
For I will be fine,
I'll be that one star,
That will forever shine.

But now,
I have nothing more to say,
So heres to my love,
I've always tried to convey.

In heaven, everything is much clearly, much better.

This is my time to fly, to let go, so this is my suicide letter.