Im upset
everything moves
dancing in circles around me
swirlng in the mist of black stars
and golden nights
flipping over
upsidedown
teasing me
i cannot catch
my breath
or soul
they are flying
uncontrollably
here and there
in torrents of tears
splashing and cursing
screaming
living a life of death
flowing roughly
in the leftover mud
making messes
of my organized treasures
breaking and shattering
every hope
every dream
swirling
twirling
dancing
prancing
laughing at me
as a little naive girl
not understanding
the ways of the world
poking and prodding me
to do their bidding
never once thinking
of how i feel
i feel faint
and cold
and lifeless
i faint
falling...
falling...
never landing
never stopping
never living
never dying
always
always
uncontrolled
as to what i do
what i say
what i think
controlled by others
in this stupid world of nothingness
as i fall
into a new world
this new life
where everything
is cheerful
but i pass it
still not stopping
i pass another world
one of sadness and despair
still falling
another
beautiful
not a person in sight
just many
many
lost, tired souls
spinning
and crying
and then
i land
i stop
i live
i die
and
i live again
another
lost, tired soul
in the mist of black stars
and yellow nights...
