What are we

Where do i start
i don't even remember
i guess it all started
way back in December

things got really close
way way too fast
but i hoped in my heart
that it would always last

but deep down inside me
was a voice to be heard
a voice screaming at me
saying i was absurd

telling me i was crazy
telling me i was wrong
telling me it wouldn't last
wouldn't last for very long

and the more the voice grew
the more i pushed it away
because in my fragile heart
i wanted to believe you would stay

but the voice wasn't lying
it knew what was right
but i tried to believe in you
i tried with all my might

then i woke up one morning
expecting the best b day Ive had in years
but to my surprise
the day would end in tears

i told myself it was over
and that i was OK
but deep down inside
there were things i had to say

...i want you
...i miss you
...i love you
...i need you

those are the things
i wanted you to see
but i knew in my heart
that we could never be

but that didn't matter to me
because i couldn't stop my desire
because when you broke my heart
you left me with a fire

it started out as a flicker
maybe even a small flame
but i knew that soon to come
my feelings would be down the drain

but that wasn't the case
not in the least bit
the flame kept growing
and i felt like...

and when you look at me now
every time i pass by
your eyes look empty
and i don't even know why

why do you like me today
why wont you like me tomorrow
why do you fill my life with joy
why do you fill my life with sorrow

i just wish things could be simple
like they used to be
so close to one another
not caring whose there to see

like when i used to look into your eyes
your eyes so beautiful blue
and all i wanted to do forever
was sit there holding you

i wish you were still my baby
the one that i adore
but now it just seems
like we are no more...