To good for me

Oh i remember when
i was better than all the rest
but i wasn't perfect
i was far from the best

oh remember when
i tried so hard every day
and i was so proud so honored so happy
that i lived the right way

i tried my hardest
even when
all my friends
had given in

then there was that day
the day that changed my life
it happened on accident
but tell that to the knife

it was so very very close
i cud see my life be4 my eyes
ahh the sharp pain
and my stomach begins to rise

i never again saw that school
and i never told anyone why
i just pretended to be sick
because i was afraid that i would die

since then my perfect life has changed
but only for the better
am at a better place now
but thats not why I'm writing this letter

this place isn't as good as it seems
it has its ups and downs, but
its definitely not the place of my dreams

it all was so perfect
or it seemed for a little while
and now its puts me down
and i cant seem to find my smile

i used to try so hard
now it doesn't matter
because now I'm the worst
and it just makes me so much sadder

i have so many friends
but they cant hang with me
because all the standards are to high
too high for me to be

so i am giving up now
because the path is too rough
iv tried my hardest
but the standards are far too tough