My Whole Life

My life is splitting in two.
I don't know what to do?

I can't stop cutting myself.
It's like a thrill.
I get chills down my spine.
It releases all the pain my
life has spilled.

My love life is like a roller coaster,
and wont hold still.
My pain, and suffering makes
me ill.

I can't stop shaking.
It feels like my heart is
breaking.
My body goes numb.
I can't even feel.

The piercing cuts I do to myself
that wont heal.
Get deeper, and deeper as
the pain in my life gets steeper.

You can be so mean to me
like I don't even matter.
It feels like our relationship is full
of batter.

We fight all the time.
It's like a battle.
every time one of our nerves
is rattled.

When you put stuff in front
of me like your friends, and
weed.
It makes me wounder what the
hell you are doing to me?

I try to change my thoughts, and
push them away.
I can't do that they are here to
stay.

But please stop doing this to
me I do love you in every way.

Written By: Krystle Cox (Sweet Angel)
Written: June 14, 2000

I do not cut myself anymore which is really good. I've learned to deal with my pain another way. Please rate, and comment on my poem it would mean the world to me. Thank You for reading my poem.
~Krystle