The life of me The first 16 years 3

Even time did heal those
Now only think small lines
Time chose me to close
So many many times

Then again my friend left
And I was all alone
With the knife I was too deft
It did not bring the zone

This time I tried to die
To take it all at once
God knows that I was nigh
But with death I am a dunce

Stretched across the road
On a heavy trafficked day
Trying to be crushed like a toad
To end my fitful way

Once again I was condemned
To continue on my path
My roots a plant too long stemmed
I wish to feel all gods wrath

Then again I was struck down
But this time by someone close
She brought upon my face a frown
I wished to take a fatal dose

I guess I learned my lesson before
Because this time I did not hurt
I wished to kill the little w*hore
Stuff her underground in dirt

Many times after that moment
I was rejected and denied
I seemed to lose my endowment
And a with each a little died

I was toyed with many times
Just for girl’s evil fun
Poked through my heart with evil tines
My body on the run

Having fun in my torment
Your evil words a web
My heart asleep lying dormant
Though its tides still flow and ebb

Finally some good came to me
And she was my one true love
Many times I talked with she
And decided she was from above

She has stuck with me so far
And I hope her love will last
Her perfection I cannot mar
She has beauty unsurpassed

Another love has arisen though
She has come into my life
I do not want my heart to show
So stretched out in this strife

Once again I’ve gotten older
I’ve hit a point in my life
All in all I’m getting bolder
But at 16 I still have strife

Another year from none
Never slowing down, so fast
I hope my life is far from done
Because 16 is a blast

Long enough is this story
To cover 16 years
Long live a life of grace and glory
With far from many tears

*way simplified because i didn't want to write way too much. as it is it takes up 5 pages in word...* there you have the life of me, as i see it**