A lie

My happiness is just a lie
Inside myself I cry and cry
But these people do not see
They do not try to comfort me

I'm scared and frightened and I'm lonely
I wish you could be mine if only
I hate myself I want to die
I'm sick of always having to cry

Trying to cut my stomach away
Slicing myself up every day
Punching myself, I feel so low
I do not want to stay, I want to go

I want to take a length of rope
End my life, I have no hopes
My dreams are filled with pain and fear
What is the point of me being here

All I do is make a mess
The person who destroys things best
People hate me, for how I look
From my heart my happiness they took

When they yell and call me names
It drives me crazy, so insane
Why does no one see my pain
Why happiness can I not gain

I want to die, Don't want to live
I have nothing that I can give
I am a failure a disgrace
Look at me, at the state of my face

Look at the knives hidden everywhere
In my bag they're sitting there
My whole smile is just a lie
All I want now is to die