Disgrace

You never really understood
how come to me
life didnt ever seem so good.
you couldnt really see,
the cuts along my vein.
Every Day I'd avoid the mirror
thought I was fat, didnt want to see my scar filled arm
I felt like a disgrace,
a failure left to die from self harm.
You told me of a suicide..some kid tried to erase.
You begged me to let you help, you didnt want me dead.
I couldnt open up, it wouldnt have saved me.
You never saw the blood stains on my bed.
You never wanted to end up my enemy.
I just didnt ever tell you,
how I felt so sad inside.
I never knew exactly what to do.
But I dont want to have to hide.
everything
anymore...

Hayley ©