All of This - copy

The butterflies danced in my stomach.
My heart swelled with joy.
Laughter emitted from my entire body.
A smile seemed plastered onto my face.
All of this, because I saw you.
I hoped for the best friendship and more with you.
Maybe one day I'd tell you I loved you.
We would always be a friend to one another.
Possibly be more known together than apart.
All of this, because I cared for you.
You were trusted with thoughts no one else knew.
I was amazing and beautiful in your eyes.
You knew my need to be it for you.
Thoughts of you raced through my mind.
All of this, because you were mine.

To look at you brings me pain and anger.
I can never stop fighting back the tears.
A grown hatred hardens my heart.
I keep my back to you when I leave you.
All of this, because of a mistake.
I miss every detail about you.
My heart breaks when I am near you.
Enemies battle in my heart and head.
Lies are all around me.
All of this, because I let my guard down.
With you comes a bitter memory.
Yet I sit here all alone.
Stubbornness keeps me from returning.
Our lives remain separate.
All of this, because I am scared.

I wish we can gain it all back.
Our friendship will become so strong.
Hours of talking are ahead of us,
Although it may take time.
All of this, because we can still be friends.
Soon enough I will be held so tightly.
Trusting my life in your arms.
We will care about each other forever and always.
A smile will again become plastered onto my face.
All of this, because you know me best.
Those awkward trips, I'll no longer take.
We will make many new memories.
Will you be"all my...always?"
Someday I just might love you.
All of this, because my heart will finally be ready.

This just shows what I was thinking about a relationship, about the past and how perfect everything was, the present and how I feel about everything, and the future and how I hope we will one day be. Sometimes I think that we could be ok again and get back together, and I do hope with all of my heart that in the future we can be friends the way we used to.

Thanks for reading this, and please comment on anything I can improve or anything whatsoever!